THAT post should have looked something like this:
TRIUMPH! Finished the Monument 10k in *personal* record time. Ran the whole thing. Excited to hear about the “Have a Monumental Day” birthday poster that was displayed on the route (BTW whoever that was please contact me!!!)
Boston happened and I didn’t think it was appropriate that I post a bunch of stuff about the 10k etc…
then time passed. I hurt. I hurt because i pushed too hard at the race and my knees and legs hurt. Then it rained and rained. Then I hurt myself again running, this time I cramped and had a bit of breakdown because I felt like I was letting myself down and couldn’t run. That was a bad night too much crying and bent over in pain. So I didn’t run. The weather has gotten better my legs are better, but I haven’t gotten back out there. Life has crept up on me and so has some weight.
Depressingly about 12 pounds worth.
So I didn’t want to write about my failure. I felt like I fail at this blog, the race, the weight loss… and I didn’t want to post about that. I was tired and crazy busy with family and my sisters wedding coming up. I had plenty of excuses. I hate excuses.
But.. I hadn’t gone up a pant size, I’m still in great shape, the weather is nice, I did finish the race, I didn’t binge but I’m eating too much chips and dips, and the blog is about the triumphs and failures, about putting myself out there to fail and learn from it.
So that is what I’m trying to do now. I’m going to do ANOTHER big fast. Either 30 or 60 days. I want to do 60 and think of it as a finish line fast one that takes me FINALLY to my final goal. June and July have a lot of cook outs to get through, and I don’t know if I’m up for it. I’ll keep posting the day by days, I still have to finish out a months worth. See you all soon.